Have you ever looked at something so beautiful it made you sad? Maybe I sound crazy but beautiful things make me a little sad, like really, really beautiful things. I guess I don't know exactly why. I think it's partly because I feel like I could never appreciate them as much as they deserve. Or partly it's because I don't think I deserve the gift of that much beauty. Maybe you think I'm definitely crazy, but I think some of you know how I feel. I don't get this feeling often but it happened to me this weekend while spending time outside. The changing colors on the trees couldn't have been more beautiful and I found myself feeling really lucky and grateful that I was surrounded by them. Its nice that after 24 years of seeing this beauty every fall, it hasn't lost its effect on me yet. I hope you all took a second this weekend to really look at your surroundings, if you did, I'm sure you know it was worth it.
So speaking of fall colors, this week's painting definitely includes a few of those tones. I started out this painting using blues and I think my color scheme started to skew towards the warmer colors as I became more inspired by them throughout the week.
I used gouache again to create this painting and I've got to admit I am still loving it. I was loving it even more this week because I was painting on watercolor paper. The paint clings to the paper much better then it did on the previous paper I was using (bristol) and it dried so much more beautifully. I have been surprised how much control I have over the paint even though it is much more fluid compared to acrylic. For a small details and perfectionist kind of artist like me, that has been key to my developing relationship with gouache.
I started this painting without any real direction with where I wanted to take it. If you haven't noticed in my previous work, I really like circles so I started with that border and eventually started to envision the rest of the piece.
Like usual, the rest of the elements and details seemed to develop naturally. There were a few times that I was literally scared to start painting something new (i.e. the maroon background elements as well as the maroon inside the circle border). With gouache there isn't a ton of wiggle room if you don't like something you paint so that definitely put the pressure on me to "not mess up".
After worrying and stressing more then I should have, I reminded myself that mistakes are part of the process. It is unrealistic to think that every painting I create will be a master piece. Instead I need to remember that mistakes are actually just times that I am able to grow and learn and develop into a stronger artist. Looking at "mistakes" in that light make them a lot less scary and a little more encouraging when they do happen.
Funny though that once I stopped stressing so much about making a mistake, I actually started to appreciate all the different elements of this piece a whole lot more. I started to feel like everything was working together and in the end I'm pretty happy with how it all turned out. To be honest, every time I look at it, I picture it printed on a pillow. Or maybe a blanket. It's kind of fun imagining my 2D work being used in a 3D way. It'll happen someday. Goals, goals, goals. As usual, if you have any thoughts or questions about my work, I would love to hear them, just comment below!
I hope you all have a lovely week! Stop back soon, you can bet I'll have more to chat about.