I feel like it has been a while since I just talked. Well typed, but you know what I mean. It's been a while since I have given myself a moment to sit down and let out the things that have been floating around in my mind. I've been living in the city for just shy of 2 months and I think I can best sum it up as one big adjustment period. I've been adjusting to new jobs, full time work, longer commutes, and less free time. A new neighborhood, new home, new bedroom. New normals are being found and new familiar comforts are being created. It's an adjustment.
Before I moved, these changes scared me. Sometimes they still do. Like being the new girl. Something I have never truly experienced and now at age 24, I'm the unfamiliar face, hoping I'll be liked, accepted and welcomed. At times, I have to remind myself that friendships don't happen overnight. Thankfully, most of the time it feels exciting. Meeting new people, slowly sharing with each other, and feeling potential for a real relationship. There is something interesting and beautiful in the opportunity to get to know someone without any prior knowledge. Having a totally clean slate and getting to know someone solely through observations and what they choose to share. I'm enjoying the process and feel incredibly lucky that I have the roommates that I do and work with great people at both of my jobs. Lesson learned, being the outsider isn't too bad.
New expenses and budgets. Adjusting to the time change and keeping in touch. Never using my winter coat. Seeing the golden gate almost every day. I could keep listing the new things in my life and adjustments that are being made, but I think you get the idea. Life is full of different chapters and for me, this one is full of change. They haven't always been easy, but I can honestly say that the past two months have been really, really good. The buildup before a time of big change can be scary and daunting. Sometimes, I think we let that initial fear keep us from taking any chances at all. If there is anything I've learned in the past two months, its that I am strong, the unknown isn't always bad, and life can be figured out as you go. Trivial worries are not worth anyone's time or energy, especially when life is busy and life is better when it's filled with work you enjoy, and passions you can't wait to get home to.
So like I've said before, changes are inevitable and can be hard, but I guess I just wanted to share that I'm given proof everyday that it's all worth it. Tough stuff tends to be balanced with the good and in the end, isn't life just one big adjustment period? Don't let it the fear of change stop you from taking your chances. Eventually, everything will get figured out.